• Book Review #42: Quit Like A Woman… by Holly Whitaker (2019)

    Rating: 4 out of 5 ⭐️
    Title: Quit Like A Woman: The Radical Choice to Not Drink in a Culture Obsessed with Alcohol
    Author: Holly Whitaker
    Published: 2019 (Dial Press, New York)
    Pages: 368 (Audible Audiobook)
    Genres: Nonfiction, Self-Help, Autobiography, Health, Lifestyle, Feminism
    CW: Alcoholism (of course…), Eating Disorders, Strong Language, Mental Health Topics, Abuse, Toxic Relationships and Parents
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    Alright, are you wondering how I came across this book? If you asked, reviews and posts kept coming up on my Goodreads and Instagram feed about this book often recently, and it’s because I’m pretty sure the paperback version just came out. I do not read a lot of self-help books, especially about alcoholism, but after reading the premise for this one and the reviews, it sounded appealing to me. Let me start off by saying, I am not an alcoholic (I did not finish this book thinking now I’m an alcoholic either). In the past, I briefly spoke about drug and alcohol addiction being a large part of my close family member’s lives. So addiction has always fascinated me, and also how outsiders view and cope with a loved one’s addiction. And after my own stint of sobriety for health reasons last year, I thought this book would be appropriate for me to read. And oh boy, was I in for a ride reading this one!

    The largest single use of ethanol is as an engine fuel and fuel additive. In other words, we drink, for fun, the same thing we use to make rocket fuel, house paint, anti-septics, solvents, perfumes, and deodorants and to denature, i.e. to take away the natural properties of, or kill, living organisms. Which might make sense on some level if we weren’t a generation of green minded, organic, health-conscious, truth seeking individuals. But we are….. We are hyper-vigilant about everything we put into our body, everything we do to our body, and we are proud of this. We Instagram how proud we are of this, and we follow Goop and Well+Good, and we drop 40 bucks on an exercise class because there are healing crystals in the floor….. The global wellness economy is estimated to be worth $4 trillion. $4 TRILLION DOLLARS. We are on an endless and expensive quest for wellness and vitality and youth. And we drink f*cking rocket fuel” – Holly Whitaker, Quit Like A Woman

    This book was wholly nothing I expected. Quit Like A Woman: The Radical Choice to Not Drink in a Culture Obsessed with Alcohol is written by Holly Whitaker, CEO and founder of her program, Tempest, and former director of a San Francisco health tech start-up. By what I understand, after her own battle with alcohol addiction, Whitaker comes to the conclusion that no one is an ‘addict’ and no one should be labeled as such. People simply suffer from addiction due to life and stressors that are unique to that person, and can take form of alcohol or anything else. She is passionate about advocating for not labeling alcoholics or claiming they’re ‘incurable’. Whitaker created her own program of support based on her own research, one that opposes the out-of-date ideas preached in Alcoholics Anonymous (if you read this book you’ll find out she really does not like AA) and related ideas, and tailored more towards women with supporting research and other programs such as Allen Carr’s. She cites Allen Carr A LOT in this book, by the way.

    We love to protect alcohol and our right to consume it, and to vilify people who can’t handle it. We venerate the substance; we demonize those who get sick from using it” – Holly Whitaker, Quit Like A Woman...

    Whitaker makes a lot of excellent points about alcohol and its effects on the body and on us as a society, especially in America. Despite your position on alcohol, and whether you’re sober or not, I think this is a very interesting and crucial read, especially if you’re a Millennial and woman. She associates the problem of alcohol on the body, through marketing like cigarettes, the myths and problems about associating “alcoholic” with addiction, etc. She touches on harder-to-swallow subjects as well, such as calling out large wellness-centered companies like Goop, and speaking a lot about social justice activism in connection with addiction. Her writing is also fantastic for someone who is primarily business oriented. I listened to the audio book recording of this book, and she is entertaining to listen to in a humorous feminist way, kind of like Rachel Hollis or Gabrielle Bernstein (who she also quotes a lot).

    To properly heal from addiction, we need a holistic approach. We need to create a life we don’t need to escape. We need to address the root causes that made us turn outside ourselves in the first place. This means getting our physical health back, finding a good therapist, ending or leaving abusive relationships, learning to reinhabit our bodies, changing our negative thought patterns, building support networks, finding meaning and connecting to something greater than ourselves, and so on. To break the cycle of addiction, we need to learn to deal with cravings, break old habits, and create new ones” – Holly Whitaker, Quit Like A Woman…

    Overall, I really enjoyed this book and at times I could not get enough! The only aspect I was not so sure about was how often and personally she spoke about social justice issues, even though she is a cis white female… I’m glad she’s using her platform to speak on all women’s rights in a positive way, but I’m kind of exhausted of hearing about social issues from cis white females, and would have rather heard more first-hand accounts from persons of color she could interview. Her preachy-sounding tone was also a turn-off during some points. And at times, I wish she stuck to talking about her own personal experiences in her life and addiction, and left the larger experiences of “all women” out of it. But this is all mostly me though.

    There is the life that most of us live, and then there is the life we have buried deep inside us, the life we know we’re supposed to be living” – Holly Whitaker, Quit Like A Woman…

    Why should you read this book? If you enjoy reading self-help books, but about a personal, humorous and enlightening take on alcohol addiction and how it practically affects our current society and attitudes, this is the book for you. I hope you all give this book a chance if you can!

    I give this a 4 out of 5!


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  • ARC Review: The Imposter by Marin Montgomery (2021)

    Rating: 3 out of 5⭐️
    Title: The Imposter
    Author: Marin Montgomery
    Expected Publication Date: March 9, 2021 (Thomas & Mercer)
    Pages: 431 (ARC eBook)
    Genres: Fiction, Thriller, Mystery, Suspense
    CW: Violence, Trauma, Suicide, Alcoholism, Brief Sexuality, Assault, Mental Illness
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    Side Note: I received an Advanced Readers Copy of The Imposter by the author through NetGalley in exchange for an honest review. This title will be released on March 9th 2021.

    I’m finally catching up on my ARCs this week! Specifically, Marin Montgomery’s new suspense thriller, The Imposter. Sadly, this one has been sitting in my TBR stack since December. But on the bright side, this review comes at a good time since this book comes out soon, March 9th to be exact. I was excited when the author reached out, and asked me to read it. This is the first book I have read by Montgomery. And she also lives in my hometown of Phoenix, AZ so it is definitely a huge plus to be reading a book by a local author. The plot sounded suspenseful, and I was definitely intrigued. Despite this book falling off my radar, I made an effort to pick it up back up, and I’m glad I did.

    The Imposter centers around mother and daughter, Deborah and Sibley Sawyer. Deborah is a middle-aged and troubled single widow living on her family’s farm in a small town in the Midwest, and Sibley is an alcoholic and successful divorce lawyer in Arizona who lives with her husband, Holden, a college professor who is on his last nerve with Sibley. Deborah and Sibley had a falling out and had not spoken for many years, until Sibley shows up on Deborah’s doorstep on the run from her crumbling life looking to make amends. As Sibley reconnects with familiar faces in her home town and truths are revealed, both characters have to come to terms with their own secrets that have stayed buried in their small town. Under suspicious circumstances, the two women also question their reality when strange events begin to occur. But is it too late for their relationship and themselves to be repaired, and the better question is, who can be trusted?

    The aspects I liked about this book was that the plot and story were full of suspense, and no parts of this book dropped or ever felt boring. Montgomery does a wonderful job keeping the story going from start to finish. Yet the pacing reminded me of watching a TV drama or something similar. The writing, for being super cheesy, was communicated well. And the plot was carried through the main two character’s inner struggles. The author I can best compare her to is Shari Lapena. But the aspects I was not a fan of was that the characters felt unreliable, and frankly I was tired of some of the side characters pretty quick. Without giving too much away, the main two characters were not trustworthy to the reader at any point in the book. Maybe that was partially the point, but there were hardly any directions toward the truth besides of course how the book rounded out in the end. The ending seemed to fall together without much of a clever set-up, and relied completely on the suspense. Plus I found a few parts of the plot and character’s engagements with each other to be far stretched and choppy. But for how messy it all seemed at times, this book had an interesting dialogue about relationships and second chances.

    Regardless, this book was definitely entertaining and engaging. Literally, the story was entirely growing suspense from start to finish. Why should you read this book? If you enjoy suspense thrillers centering on estranged familial relationships and reading about two women seemingly going insane under the same roof, this is the book for you. This is a book I will not be forgetting any time soon.

    I give this one a 3 out of 5!


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  • Book Review #41: Swimming in the Dark by Tomasz Jedrowski (2020)

    Rating: 4 out of 5⭐️
    Title: Swimming in the Dark: A Novel
    Author: Tomasz Jedrowski
    Published: 2020 (William Morrow, HarperCollins, New York)
    Pages: 191 (Hardcover)
    Genres: Fiction, Historical, LGBT, Queer, Contemporary, Romance
    CW: Sex, Political Unrest, Violence, Discrimination, Drug Use
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    My borrowed copy of Swimming in the Dark against a bath wall

    Hello everyone! I’m back this week to talk about this emotionally gripping and heartbreaking novel, Swimming in the Dark by Polish author Tomasz Jedrowski. This is the first book I have read by Jedrowski. I can’t remember where I stumbled across this one, but it was a while ago and I saw many positive reviews. When this read became available at my local library, I wanted to give it a shot. But I have to admit when this book was described as “Call Me By Your Name set in Communist Poland”, it definitely piqued my interest.

    And yet, it occurs to me now that we can never run with our lies indefinitely. Sooner or later we are forced to confront their darkness. We can choose then when, not the if. And the longer we wait, the more painful and uncertain it will be” – Tomasz Jedrowski, Swimming in the Dark

    Swimming in the Dark is like a long love letter and recounting narrative directed towards the main character’s love interest, Janusz. Literally, the narration is directed to a second person from beginning to end. Our narrator, Ludwik Glowacki, is a young man living in Communist Poland in the early 1980s, and is about to become a true adult in the world finding his place in his country when he meets his first great love, another young man named Janusz. They begin a torrid affair during the summer they first meet at an agriculture camp. They bond over James Baldwin’s novel Giovanni’s Room, a book not accepted in Poland. The book affects them for different reasons, and how they see their gay identities, especially Ludwik’s. Both men struggle with the social and political pressures their country throws at them, and both deal with the pressures of having the hide who they are. Ludwik and Janusz eventually fall on different very different paths in their society as they get acquainted into their own identities as they go out into the world and grow apart. Ludwik quickly realizes life isn’t as simple as it was that summer they met in the countryside, and questions whether he wants to remain in the country that restricted his freedoms to choose. Swimming in the Dark is a story of love, history, loss and growing into one’s identity. This book, overall, is incredibly speculative and powerful.

    This wasn’t distraction or entertainment: here was a book that seemed to have been written for me, which lifted me up into its realm and united me with something that seemed to have been there all along and that I seemed to be a part of. It felt as if the words and the thoughts of the narrator – despite their agony, despite their pain – healed some of my agony and my pain, simply by existing” – Tomasz Jedrowski, Swimming in the Dark

    This book was like a collection of poetry at times. I was not sure about the narration style at first, but I grew to love it. Jedrowski does a wonderful job of diving into the inner feelings and desires of the main character. I could not identify with any of the characters, especially Ludwik, but I was still feeling for him by the end of the novel. The writing was intense and contained a tender message about a cold time in Poland’s history. Jedrowski is very descriptive when it comes to his writing, and to put it frankly, uses a lot of words to describe certain ideas and emotions. It only makes the narrative seem more like poetry, and at times I questioned how necessary it was. I’m not the author though. Also, the history in the book itself was super fascinating. I did not know a lot about Communist Poland post-WWII, and also when Poland fell under martial law and the decline of communism occurred in the 1980s. Jedrowski describes the history, and the feelings of the people around the events so vividly and I feel like I learned a lot in the process.

    Because you were right when you said that people can’t always give us what we want from them; that you can’t ask them to love you the way you want. No one can be blamed for that” – Tomasz Jedrowski, Swimming in the Dark

    Why should you read this book? If you enjoy historical fiction about LGBT narratives and young-adult characters centering around Communist Poland, this is the book for you. This book is definitely rewarding in itself, and if you’re looking to expand your queer and LGBT reading, this is a good place to continue. The story also summarizes the experience of growing up not fitting into your environment, and remaining on the outside because of your identity very well. I only became emotional at some points reading this book, but not as much as I’ve heard others have. The story and difficult situations can be a lot to take in at times so be prepared.

    I give this one a 4 out of 5! There were not that many negatives, and the story was complete in itself and communicated very well.


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  • Short Review #29: Twelve Nights at Rotter House by J.W. Ocker (2019)

    Rating: 3.5 out of 5⭐️
    Title: Twelve Nights at Rotter House
    Author: J.W. Ocker, Narrated by Matt Godfrey
    Published: 2019 (Turner, Audible Audio: Highbridge)
    Duration: 7 hrs 47 min
    Genres: Horror, Fiction, Paranormal, Mystery, Haunted House
    CW: supernatural, murder, violence, sexual references, crime
    Goodreads 2021 Reading Challenge: 5/52
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    Twelve Nights at Rotter House displayed on my phone over my new bedspread

    Hi all, this is my second review in one week! I’m really catching up on my reading. But this week I did something different – I devoured this one as an AUDIOBOOK. And I do not normally listen to audiobooks. Since my commute to work has become longer, I thought this was a good time to start getting into audiobooks again. I definitely prefer cold and hard physical paperbacks or hardcover books over audiobooks any day. And for the longest time, I said I would not listen to audiobooks. But I decided to give audiobooks a fair chance. I’m hoping they grow on me. Maybe you will (hopefully) see me talk about them more often in the future. Anyways, I’m glad one of the first ones I’ve listened to in a long time was this spooky book. This week I finished the horror fiction book, Twelve Nights at Rotter House by J.W. Ocker. I’ve been wanting to read this one for a long time, and I’m glad I finally took the leap to read it.

    Because you trust your house, right? It’s your house. It protects you from the world and, even more important, all the people out there. It sees you naked every day. It knows your sins. It’s the only place where you are your true self. So when that gets corrupted, when that becomes haunted, that’s terrifying” – J.W. Ocker, Twelve Nights at Rotter House

    This is the first book I have read by Ocker, and I was not disappointed. Twelve Nights at Rotter House follows travel writer Felix Allsey as he gains access to the supposedly haunted and eerie Rotterdam Mansion, or Rotter House as most call it. In order to boost his writing career and maybe write a book, Felix decides to lock himself in the famous house with a past or Rotterdam Mansion for 13 nights. Felix’s rules are that he must stay in the house the entire time, and sleep during the day and only be awake at night to witness the supposed happenings that go bump in the night. Soon, his best friend Thomas Ruth joins Felix during this paranormal journey. The reader gets to know Felix and Thomas, and the rift that had occurred between them that still affects their friendship. And to this moment, I’m still questioning parts of this fairly wide-spread narrative even though event-wise not a lot happens.

    First of all, I loved the conversation and banter between Felix and Thomas. The conversations were honestly one of my favorite parts of this book. Ocker does a wonderful job highlighting the important plot points through their conversations, and keeping the characters seem like relatable persons. The conversations were suspenseful but pretty tame, except for the occasional disturbing twist thrown here and there into the dialogue. The content of this book became pretty dark at a few parts so I do not recommend this one if you’re unsure about horror books in general. The climax though was not as astounding or as masterfully timed as it could have been. The final twist was not very inspired or original, and that would have been fine, but only if the timing was just a bit different. This is definitely a book where I enjoyed the journey more than the destination/ending.

    Why should you read this book? If you like suspenseful, haunted house books with witty characters and dialogue, this is the book for you. Honestly, any horror fan should give this book a chance at least. It is one of the better haunted house books I’ve read in a while.

    I give this one a 3.5 out of 5!


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  • Short Review #28: Flawless: Inside the Largest Diamond Heist in History by Scott Andrew Selby and Greg Campbell (2010)

    Rating: 4 out of 5⭐️
    Title: Flawless: Inside the Largest Diamond Heist in History
    Author: Scott Andrew Selby and Greg Campbell
    Published: 2010 (Union Square Press, New York)
    Pages: 336 (Hardcover)
    Genres: Nonfiction, True Crime, History, Cultural
    CW: true crime, strong themes
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    Flawless held up in front of my bookshelf in my old apartment

    Hi everyone, its been a while! I haven’t posted for a couple weeks, because I recently moved homes and it was a difficult one… I forgot how much of a pain moving is and unpacking can be the worst. I guess you never know until it happens *shrugs*. I am also in a small reading slump, the first one in a long time for me. Not sure why, but I’m hoping to break out of it soon. Maybe it was the move… Did I mention I don’t like moving? Anyways, this week I finished a book borrowed from a coworker. Flawless: Inside the Largest Diamond Heist in History is by Scott Andrew Selby and Greg Campbell, the authors of Blood Diamonds. The history surrounding Blood Diamonds is also showcased in the 2006 Leonardo DiCaprio film Blood Diamond.

    While it was cathartic to see the perpetrators of the crime sentenced and eventually jailed, it wasn’t what was most important to the victims…’The most important thing is, where are the other belongings?’ he said. ‘Where are the diamonds?’” – Scott Andrew Selby and Greg Campbell, Flawless

    Flawless is a true crime work of nonfiction about the largest diamond heist in history, taking place 2003 in Antwerp, Belgium in the Diamond Center. Antwerp is the international diamond capital of the world. The thieves, an Italian group of criminals called The School of Turin, stole $108-432 million worth of diamonds (but authorities and experts guess it could have been much, much more since some of the victims could not file or report their diamonds for insurance… but the authors detail why in the book). The book covers the backstory of the criminals, and the crime itself along with fascinating information about the international diamond industry. A lot of time in this book is spent on the life, role and motivations of Turin ringleader, Leonardo Notarbartolo. Notarbartolo even spent two years canvasing the Diamond Center before the group made a move by renting out a space in the building.

    Overall, I thought this book was pretty good. It was comprehensive and clear, and the authors do a wonderful job guiding the reader through the events of the crime and industry. There is so much information covered in this book so be prepared. It was also interesting as far as content goes, and I learned a lot. Why should you read this book? If you enjoy nonfiction reads about true crime and exciting diamond heists, then this is the book for you.

    I give this one a 4 out of 5! There was nothing particularly negative about this one, the book was more informative and neutral as far as perspective goes. It was not extraordinary enough for me to give it 5 stars though.


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  • Book Review #40: Ready Player Two by Ernest Cline (2020)

    Rating: 3 out of 5⭐️
    Title: Ready Player Two (Sequel to Ready Player One (2011))
    Author: Ernest Cline
    Published: 2020 (Ballantine Books)
    Pages: 367 (Hardcover)
    Genres: Fiction, Science Fiction, Fantasy, Dystopian Fiction, Adventure
    CW: strong language, adult situations and themes, references to sex
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    My borrowed copy of Ready Player Two by my desk neon cactus

    Hi everyone, I hope you’re all hanging in there and having a good weekend! I’m getting ready to move homes soon so I haven’t had as much time for reading recently. The last time I moved was a couple years ago, but I definitely forgot how hard it was… Anyways, this week I finished the especially anticipated science fiction read, Ready Player Two by Ernest Cline. This book is the sequel to Ready Player One, the first novel by the author written in 2011. I read Ready Player One shortly after it was released, and I loved it. I was grossly entertained by the story, and the references to different nerdoms were well represented and covered. The book was basically a homage to different types of nerds, and how technology impacts society on a civic, economic and cultural level. Ready Player One, as many of you may know, was turned into a movie of the same title released in 2018 and directed by Steven Spielberg. Side note: I did NOT like the movie at all, like many people who read and loved the book. Basically half the plot was changed around, and it become more commercially driven than I expected, plus the pacing was just terrible… But can you tell how much I liked the first book?

    And sometimes, when you think you’ve finally reached the end of the game, suddenly you find yourself standing at the start of a whole new level. A level that you’ve never seen before. And the only thing you can do is keep right on playing. Because the gamer that is your life still isn’t over yet..” – Ernest Cline, Ready Player Two

    Ready Player Two continues from the first book in the sci-fi series a couple years after contest winner heir, Wade Watts, inherits his tech empire in a not-so-distant dystopian future where a VR world called the OASIS is a way of life for the global population. After Wade stumbles upon a new and groundbreaking technology created by deceased OASIS creator, James Halliday, to further push the world into the tech realm of possibilities, a new contest is born. This contest was also created before Halliday passed away, and the prize is unknown both to Wade and the rest of the world. As he continues down a dangerous and perilous path while learning more about Halliday’s motives, a new enemy emerges, and Wade and his friends must face them together or allow this enemy to kill millions in order to find the prize.

    Maybe every time an intelligent species grew advanced enough to invent a global computer network, they would then develop some form of social media, which would immediately fill these beings with such an intense hatred for one another that they ended up wiping themselves out within four or five decades” – Ernest Cline, Ready Player Two

    When I started seeing others’ reports on this book, I saw many bad reviews. There were a variety of reasons why across the board, some more unfair and ridiculous than others. I tried to go into this one with an open mind, unbiased from the first book (key word is tried). Overall by the end, it was not bad, but it also was not great. I agree with the consensus that the first book was better, like many series with sequels are. I enjoyed the story and general plot, and how it connected and continued with the first book. The story flowed well, and at certain times I could not put the book down. I also enjoyed the discussion of dangerous and grey-area ethics surrounding new and groundbreaking technology. But honestly, I thought the author was trying too hard to push current social issues into themes for this book that were obviously lacking in the first book to appeal towards a current audience. The idea of questioning social representation in science fiction and fantasy books/movies is fantastic (as we should be doing), but it felt forced in this story to try to appeal to a current, young audience. This was not done or at least was not transparent in Ready Player One. To be fair, the first book also questioned gender roles and toxicity in science fiction, but Ready Player Two takes this a step further. I also thought the side characters’ roles were unnecessarily drier, and the romance between Wade and Samantha/Art3mis was lacking and a little forced in this story.

    If it weren’t for Tolkien, all of us nerds would’ve had a lot less fun during the last ninety years” – Ernest Cline, Ready Player Two

    I’m glad I read this one, but I would not say this was a worthwhile read. In my opinion, Cline could have done more with this story, and focused less on Wade and more on some of the badass and new side characters. Why should you read this book? If you like science fiction or have read Ready Player One and are ready to be potentially disappointed but equally entertained, this is the book for you. I wouldn’t believe all the negative reviews, the book is still written well and the pacing was good. But definitely go into this one skeptically.

    I give this one a 3 out of 5! (I’m still a fan of the series… I admit)


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  • Short Review #27: Video Palace: In Search of the Eyeless Man by Maynard Wills (2020)

    Rating: 3 out of 5⭐️
    Title: Video Palace: In Search of the Eyeless Man
    Authors: Maynard Wills, Nick Braccia, Michael Monello
    Published: 2020 (Tiller Press, Simon & Schuster, New York)
    Pages: 372 (Hardcover)
    Genres: Fiction, Horror, Anthology, Short Stories, Occult
    CW: Murder, Death, Strong Language, Trauma, Suicide, Gore, Violence
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    My borrowed copy of Video Palace on top of my laptop

    Hi everyone! I know I haven’t posted in a while, but now I’m writing technically my first review of 2021. There has only been 14 days so far this year, and I know everyone is going through current events differently. But I hope everyone is coping, staying sane and reading on. This week I read a not-so-sane book, Video Palace: The Search for the Eyeless Man. This short story anthology is a continuation/based off Shudder podcast Video Palace. I listened to the podcast last year, and the podcast was wildly entertaining and a little creepy. If you know me, you know I love horror movies/TV and spooky books. When I heard about the book, I had to read it mostly because I really enjoyed the podcast. But after I read the book, I found myself having reactions I did not think I would have.

    Maybe all supernatural things are just our guilt manifested. We are able to justify the heaviness we carry with us by blaming it on ghosts or demons. Or maybe that’s what I want to think because the other possibility is too scary” – Brea Grant, Video Palace: In Search of the Eyeless Man

    Video Palace is a collection of short stories written by contemporary horror writers centering around a mythical, Slenderman-like figure, the Eyeless Man. The book is set up like non-fiction (this book was even in the non-fiction section at my local library), but the stories are more of an immersive experience surrounding the disappearance of the book’s “author” Dr. Maynard Wills, an adjust professor at The New School in New York who was investigating tales about the Eyeless Man across different cultures and areas. Supposedly edited by his assistant, the stories and his notes support his discoveries about the Eyeless Man. The Eyeless Man is a Pied Piper-type urban legend that gets in the head of its victims through video/media or special VHS tapes, and controls their thoughts and desires, taking over before it engulfs them completely. If you’re unfamiliar with the podcast, the podcast focuses on a podcaster named Mark Cambria, who watches one of the VHS tapes, and then begins to have strange dreams and chant in his sleep. Mark and his girlfriend, Tamra Wulff, investigate the origin of the tapes while reporting on his podcast until it leads them to a burned down video store called Video Palace, where the tapes were supposedly made, and drives Mark into a dark place. This book seems to be a continuation of the podcast.

    All you can do is try to be a better person. Help others when ever you can. Shine light on the darkness. Show it for what it is. Because it’s never gonna go away. Nor should it. It is part of the design” – John Skipp, Video Palace: In Search of the Eyeless Man

    As far as what I thought of the book, I thought it was dreadfully creepy. The editors did a wonderful job immersing the reader and convincing them this is real, I was even convinced a few times. But by the end, it was exhausting at times to read about the same central figure over and over again in different short stories. My favorite part was the beginning, but maybe the reason why was at that point I was still questioning more whether the backstory was real or not. If you enjoy reading about urban legends or Creepypastas and horror, this is a great one. There was a lot of effort made into creating this book, and it shows. The writers, who all have backgrounds in contemporary writing/acting in horror, were also interesting in their own rite, and I enjoyed most of the stories. Some of them I thought could have been written into full books. There were a few I was not totally a fan of, but I was able to get past them for the most part.

    I give this one a 3 out of 5!


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  • Short Review #26: One by One by Ruth Ware (2020)

    Rating: 3 out of 5 ⭐️
    Title: One by One
    Author: Ruth Ware
    Published: 2020 (Scout Press, New York)
    Pages: 372 (Hardcover)
    Genres: Fiction, Mystery Thriller, Suspense, Contemporary, Crime
    CW: assault, murder, crime, trauma, language, minor gore
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    My borrowed copy of One by One in front of our Christmas decorations in front of the fireplace

    Hi everyone, 2020 is almost over, Happy New Year! This is my last review of the year, and I thought it was only appropriate I picked a book that was released in 2020, and takes place in the snowy winter like many of us face in December/January… except me, since I live in central Arizona. This thriller/mystery new release One by One is by widely-known author, Ruth Ware. I have only read two books by Ware including The Woman in Cabin 10 and The Death of Mrs. Westaway. After seeing the hype and the long waiting list at the library, I finally got the chance to dive into this one. But after reading, I was not as impressed with this one as I was with the other two books I read.

    They think that life can’t touch them–just like I used to do… Only now it has. Now life has them by the throat. And it won’t let go” – Ruth Ware, One by One

    Taking place at a rustic ski chalet in the French Alps, a group of employees and their founders from a London-based tech startup called Snoop are staying for a week-long retreat to bond and ski together. The setting and scenery are beautiful, and the retreat is going well thanks to Erin, the chalet host, and Danny, the personal chef for the chalet. But then after a devastating avalanche cuts them off from the outside world, the guests start to disappear one by one… Who is after them and why, are the biggest questions the group and reader stand to decide.

    I was not as intrigued by this book as I hoped to be. I really enjoyed The Woman in Cabin 10 and The Death of Mrs. Westaway a great deal, and Ware is a good writer, but One by One had a dry story and bland outcome for such an interesting scenario in theory. Ware does a great job diving into the backgrounds of her characters, and how it affects the present story. She does the same in this book as her others, and it is probably my favorite part. The only aspect that really bugged me was the lack of motive and explanation for the antagonist’s actions (I do not reveal spoilers so I won’t go into detail of what that is). Part of the character’s motive did not make sense, and I was not a fan of the way the story rounded out in the end. Maybe I missed something, but overall this book was not entirely my cup of tea. The writing was still fantastic, and the read was enjoyable and the setting is intriguing itself. I also liked how the entire narration of the book went back and forth between two very different perspectives at the chalet.

    Why should you read this book? If you’re interested in easy-to-read, mystery thrillers taking place in the French Alps with a large cast of contemporary characters who have their own secrets and dramas, this is the book for you. I’m still a fan of Ruth Ware, but One by One is definitely my least favorite of the books I have read by her.

    I give this a 3 out of 5!


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  • Book Review #39: The Devil and the Dark Water by Stuart Turton (2020)

    Rating: 4 out of 5 ⭐️
    Title: The Devil and the Dark Water
    Author: Stuart Turton
    Published: 2020 (Sourcebooks Landmark)
    Pages: 463 (Hardcover)
    Genres: Fiction, Mystery, Historical, Thriller, Suspense, Supernatural
    CW: murder, violence, sexual references, rape, crime, supernatural, torture
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    My borrowed copy of The Devil and the Dark Water underneath my Christmas tree

    I hope you all had and are continuing to have a wonderful Holiday! I hope you’re all doing something you enjoy or celebrating either by yourself or surrounded by your loved ones. This Christmas looked a little different for me because of the pandemic, but I’m glad I chose plans that made me and the people around me more safe. I was still gifted some fantastic new books I cannot wait to talk about on this blog. Plus I got a lot of reading done, and it may not seem like it since its been a while since I posted my last review. But my next read took extra time, because it was over 460 pages long. This week I finished the newly released The Devil and the Dark Water by English author Stuart Turton. This is his second novel. The first I read earlier this year, The 7 1/2 Deaths of Evelyn Hardcastle. I remember really enjoying The 7 1/2 Deaths of Evelyn Hardcastle once I got past my confusion and the dense slowness of the story in the beginning. And remarkably enough, I felt similar reading The Devil and the Dark Water.

    The weak shouldn’t have to fear the powerful, and the powerful shouldn’t simply be allowed to take what they wanted without consequence. Power should be a burden, not a shield. It should be used to everybody’s betterment, not merely for the person who wielded it” – Stuart Turton, The Devil and the Dark Water

    The Devil and the Dark Water has a spooky title which matches a spooky tale. Taking place in 1634, a fleet of Dutch United East India Company ships leave the trading post of Batavia (which I had to look up is somewhere in now Jakarta, Indonesia) to go to Amsterdam, a grueling 8-month journey at sea. On this particular ship, the Saardam, is a cast of characters, but the story mainly focuses on prisoner Sammy Pipps, a charming and famous detective Sherlock Holmes-type character, and his loyal and intelligent but physically massive bodyguard, Lieutenant Arent Hayes. Also included is the cruel and wealthy merchant Governor General Jan Haan, and his clever, healer wife who hates him, Sara Wessel. When an old demon who goes by ‘Old Tom’ threatens the safety of the Saardam and its passengers/crew by way of scare tactics and unholy warning signs, Arent and Sara begins to investigate in order to save the crew on board from destruction. This story is part mystery and part suspenseful thriller. The story is filed with deadly human superstition, and leaves the reader guessing at how supernatural the culprit may or may not be.

    ‘Courage isn’t an absence of fear’, cried out Sara. ‘It’s the light we find when fear is all there is. You’re needed now, so find your courage‘” – Stuart Turton, The Devil and the Dark Water

    As I mentioned a little before, I encountered the same feelings I did as reading his first novel. It took me a bit to get into this one, the beginning was slow and the number of pages makes this a daunting read if you’re not used to reading long novels (like me… I admit it). But once I got into the story, I really enjoyed it! The mystery was well-constructed and thought out, and I did not even guess the big twist. Turton does a wonderful job setting the scene, and immersing the reader into the gritty setting with his lengthy descriptions. Honestly, I kept thinking the story felt like the Pirates of the Caribbean Disney movie franchise meets Sherlock Holmes. But, I do not have a lot of experience reading about this particular time in history.

    ‘Most men would say this isn’t women’s work’…
    My father was one of them’, admitted Arent, ‘He taught me that women were frail creatures purposely crippled by God that men might prove their virtue by protecting. Sounded right enough until I went to war and saw men pleading for their lives while women swung hoes at the knights trying to take their land’, his tone hardened, ‘Strong is strong and weak is weak, and it doesn’t matter if you wear breeches or skirts if you’re the latter. Life will hammer you flat’” – Stuart Turton, The Devil and the Dark Water

    Turton admits in an amusing afterward called ‘An Apology to History. And Boats‘ that all the facts and technology may not be historically accurate to the time, but he did research. He just took liberty on certain parts. I also thought it was interesting that he did not want this book to fit into the historical fiction genre but instead cited, “This is historical fiction where the history is the fiction“. He took what he wanted from this time period, and ran with his own story. For me, I don’t mind at all, especially if the author is being completely honest about it. If you’re going to be really bothered by inaccurate historical facts to this time period, do not read this book. But nothing is terribly blatant unless you’re a history buff who is an expert on 1600s Dutch trade (which I am definitely not, by the way).

    Guilt was like dirt. It got under the skin and didn’t come clean. It made people second guess everything that was done, find fault where there was none and imagine mistakes that weren’t made. Soon enough, worries were worming out of them, growing fat on their doubt” – Stuart Turton, The Devil and the Dark Water

    Why should you read this book? If you like mysteries taking place in the 1600s that are full of gory action along with slow-burning suspense and lengthy scene descriptions, this is the book for you. Despite the harsh negatives I talked about previously, I gave this one 4-stars mostly due to the quality of the story, and how the mystery masterfully wrapped up in the end. Definitely pay attention to the ‘CWs’ I list near the top of this review, the themes are heavy and touch upon a lot of serious issues for women at the time.

    I give this one a 4 out of 5!


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  • Top Five Favorite Books Read in 2020

    Hello everyone! I saw quite a few bloggers post these end-of-year ‘Top-something” lists, and thought I would try this out. I read a lot of books in 2020, and am still in the process of finishing books from my stack. I surpassed my Goodreads Challenge 2020 goal. I might have to make my goal next year higher. This was definitely one of my most difficult years life-wise, especially when I was dealing with the stress of being furloughed with the pandemic and all. But I’m grateful I had the chance to grow this blog, my book related social media, and speak with so many wonderful book lovers and bloggers. This also was one of my most interesting years, and I learned a ton from the books I read to the experiences I gained, and the things I lost. As far as books goes, I expanded my reading horizons more than I’ve ever done in years past, and started reading outside my comfort zone. I started this blog in 2019, but 2020 was my year of serious growth.

    I’m not sure if I’ll do any more of these ‘Top-something” lists, but if you would like to see more or have any ideas – comment below or send me a direct message!

    Anyways, I wanted to talk about my top five favorite reads from 2020 and why. This list is in no particular sequential order, and honestly, this was difficult to decide. The criteria for why they’re my favorite is kind of mixed, and not only based on star ratings. Mostly my favorites depend on how this book interested and impacted me. Part of my criteria also goes along with how I rate the books I read in the first place. My rating scale can be found here. Obviously, as always, the opinions are only my own.

    1. A Gentleman in Moscow by Amor Towles (2016)
    Finished: June 5
    Rating: 4/5

    First up is A Gentleman in Moscow by Amor Towles! I remember this book felt like a long journey, but it was rewarding indeed. This book was memorable for me, because of how invested I found myself into the story and characters. There was a diverse cast, and at times felt like a lot to follow along, but the fantastical story roped together nicely and the underlying themes were memorable. I enjoy historical fiction novels, even though I do not read a lot of them, but this was definitely my favorite historical fiction novel read in 2020. The elegant details described in the Metropol Hotel, where the story takes place, and its glamorous characters reminded me of a F. Scott Fitzgerald novel. Link to description

    2. There There by Tommy Orange (2018)
    inished: September 19
    Rating: 4/5

    The bright orange cover of this book is certainly attractive, but the narrative was even more lively. There There was set up in multiple perspectives, and led up to a typical climactic ending where all the characters come together, but the journey along the way was what sucked me in. Highlighting the struggles of their pasts, contemporary Native Americans grapple with their predicaments and find communion in the present leading up to a big powwow in Oakland. I learned a lot about Native culture and perspective by a Native American author. I focused this year on reading more books by Native voices, and plan to in 2021 as well. Diversifying my reading became important to me, and I’m trying to hold myself accountable to it. There There was a wonderful read by a talented story teller and author, and the themes were powerful and heart-felt. Link to description

    3. The Lonely City: Adventures in the Art of Being Alone by Olivia Laing (2016)
    Finished: April 6
    Rating: 3/5

    This was the first book I read after I was furloughed, coincidentally. It was appropriate almost, because I would become a lot lonelier after that event, no longer going to work and having to spend more time by myself. The Lonely City is not only about being lonely, this nonfiction work by the author investigates the different types of loneliness and how artists she researched in New York used and lived through their own version of loneliness. I was more fascinated by this book more than I thought, and the writing itself is more invigorating than the description makes it out to be. You may be wondering why this is one of my favorites even though I gave it 3 stars. This book was one of my favorites, because it was wholly unexpected and more emotionally investing for me than I thought. I have an art background, but had not pondered the concept of loneliness shown through art and the lives of artists until reading this book. I live a more solitary life in general by choice, and am content with it, and I have not seen the experience summed up so well in a book before. But maybe if you’re quarantined, do not read this book. Link to description

    4. Death in Her Hands by Ottessa Moshfegh (2020)
    Finished: August 4
    Rating: 4/5

    Ottessa Moshfegh has become one of my favorite authors in the last few years, and I talk about this in my review as well. I was really excited for this book to come out in 2020, despite the release date being pushed back due to the pandemic (probably). And when it finally came out, I was pleasantly surprised by how creeped out this book made me feel. There were so many eerie moments and details that created a strange sense of dread in me. I remember really trying to figure out the mystery of this one. Even though there were a lot of slow moments, I kept wanting to figure out how this book was going to end the entire time. It was one of my favorites, because of how this book made me feel in the end, which I believe was the author’s intention. I also love Moshfegh’s writing in general. Link to description

    5. The Undocumented Americans by Karla Cornejo Villavicencio (2020)
    Finished: November 11
    Rating: 4/5

    This book was wholly original and the narrative was fantastic. A work of nonfiction, The Undocumented Americans follows the lives of undocumented persons living in the US and their stories. The stories were intimate and invited the reader into the lives the author interviewed. Villavicencio changed names and some details to protect privacy, but the stories are true. I talk about this in my review as well, but the main reason I loved this book was because it was not just a puff piece trying to change the reader’s hearts about undocumented Americans. But more like an expose into the day-to-day lives of how their status and backgrounds affect their way of life unlike others who have the privilege of being born in the US. It’s not only about the negative social and policy issues someone watches in US news, but how undocumented Americans work as hard as anyone else and the obstacles mentally and physically they face with uncertainty and courage. It’s not ‘poverty porn’ as they call it by any means, its only real life and educating the reader. I highly recommend this book to anyone who lives in the US, despite how one feels about illegal immigration policy. I also enjoyed the author’s perspective as well, coming from an undocumented American who sought out to write a book about friends and strangers who face similar or different issues. As you can see by how passionately I talk about this book, it is definitely one of my favorites. Link to description

    Side Note: list is not in any particular, sequential order